Monday, February 28, 2011

CHELSEA'S BEST EVER NO.9

Peter Leslie Osgood (20 February 1947 – 1 March 2006)

working in the studio 2/28/11

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Today was a very productive studio day. Spent the morning on the computer working on the site and listing a couple more celebs.. I listed Tommy Lee, I want to make a special piece of art for him a Bonsai Pot

I have a also been a huge fan of Tommy Lee and the way he looks, attitude, music, he is just cool. I was watching a show on Discovery or Biography something like that where Tommy said he liked bonsai and being out in the garden, shit like that. He was in the backyard chilling and just seemed like he was really enjoying himself being in nature. I can totally relate to that and I personally love to garden and just be in nature.  Tommy and his music has been a big inspiration for my ceramic Tattoo Art and I am going to really enjoy making him a custom Bonsai Pot.
I made some rock necklaces that I am planning on taking to the Musink tattoo convention this Saturday.  I am really excited to meet some of the great artists that i have been blogging about and putting on my sites. I will be giving out about 100+ of the rock necklaces at this tattoo convention. Lots of great contacts to make!
I also beaded my necklace that Bryan gave me form Jewelery my Tattoo. It looks pretty good. I wear this one when I get dressed up.. I wear the one above so I can pull it off my neck and give it to someone that I meet. They make great starting point for a discussion about my business and makes there day..


Ferguson accuses FA of going easy on Liverpool [March 20, 2010]

Sir Alex Ferguson has stoked the fires before his team’s Barclays Premier League game against Liverpool at Old Trafford tomorrow by accusing the FA of giving the Merseyside club preferential treatment.

The Manchester United manager is furious that Steven Gerrard and Javier Mascherano, the Liverpool midfield players, escaped disciplinary action this season over incidents similar to the one that earned Rio Ferdinand, the United defender, a four-match ban for violent conduct.

“They [Liverpool] do all right,” Ferguson said, witheringly, of the FA’s decision not to charge Gerrard or Mascherano. “They are lucky like that. Maybe one day we will get lucky.”

Ferguson has called for an urgent overhaul of the FA’s disciplinary unit after openly questioning its integrity and dismissing the governing body as “dysfunctional”.

The FA could not take action against Gerrard for catching Michael Brown, the Portsmouth midfield player, with his forearm during Liverpool’s 4-1 win at Anfield on Monday because Stuart Attwell, the referee, said he had seen the incident and deemed it sufficient only to award a free kick to the away team. Ferguson, though, seemed unconvinced.

“He saw the elbow?” Ferguson said, disbelievingly. “You see, it goes on and on and on. I didn’t expect them to charge Gerrard simply because it’s a dysfunctional unit, the FA.

“I don’t think they know what they are doing. There is no consistency for a start, so you can’t expect to get consistency and I never expect any. So I’m not too bothered about it, to be honest with you. They’ll do what they want down there. It’s crazy at times.

“But I certainly think if it was a Manchester United player, he would have been done, as was the case with Rio Ferdinand. There is nothing you can do about it. You just scratch your head at some of the decisions they take and wonder how they came to them.”

HERE'S WHAT FERGUSON HAS TO SAY TODAY .....



Wayne Rooney will face no disciplinary action for his elbow on Wigan Athletic's James McCarthy at the DW Stadium on Saturday.

The FA spoke to the referee, Mark Clattenburg, this morning and he said he saw the incident and was satisfied that he dealt with it appropriately at the time.

Any ban would have ruled Rooney out of Tuesday's Premier League match against Chelsea, Sunday's meeting with Liverpool and the FA Cup quarter-final tie against either Leyton Orient or Arsenal.

Television replays apparently showed Rooney swipe McCarthy on the back of his head with an elbow after the midfielder had appeared set to block the Manchester United striker's run.

Old Trafford boss Alex Ferguson believes Rooney, who scored United's third, has no case to answer.

Fergie insisted: "I have had a chance to see it. There is nothing in it."

PARTRIDGE ON PARTRIDGE

83rd Annual Academy Awards Winners

The King's Speech won Best Picture and The Fighter scored two acting awards, Natalie Portman took home her first Oscar. Mellisa Leo drops the F-bomb live. Trent Reznor wins best score, and actress Gwyneth Paltrow is now...singing




BEST PICTURE




THE KING'S SPEECH









ACTOR IN A LEADING ROLE





COLIN FIRTH
[The King's Speech]







ACTOR IN A SUPPORTING ROLE





CHRISTIAN BALE
[The Fighter]







ACTRESS IN A LEADING ROLE




NATALIE PORTMAN
[Black Swan]








ACTRESS IN A SUPPORTING ROLE




MELISSA LEO
[The Fighter]









ANIMATED FEATURE FILM - Toy Story 3
ART DIRECTION - Alice in Wonderland
CINEMATOGRAPHY - Inception
COSTUME DESIGN - Alice in Wonderland
DIRECTING - Tom Hooper [The King's Speech]
DOCUMENTARY FEATURE - Inside Job
DOCUMENTARY SHORT SUBJECT - Strangers No More
FILM EDITING - The Social Network
FOREIGN LANGUAGE FILM - In a Better World [Denmark]
MAKEUP - The Wolfman
MUSIC (ORIGINAL SCORE) - The Social Network
MUSIC (ORIGINAL SONG) - Toy Story 3 [We Belong Together] Randy Newman
SHORT FILM (ANIMATED) - The Lost Thing
SHORT FILM (LIVE ACTION) - God of Love
SOUND EDITING - Inception
SOUND MIXING - Inception
VISUAL EFFECTS - Inception
WRITING (ADAPTED SCREENPLAY) - The Social Network
WRITING (ORIGINAL SCREENPLAY) - The King's Speech

Sunday, February 27, 2011

For all FaceBook users



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TODAYS JOKE


Whats Red and Gold and goes ' beep ... beep ... beep ... beep
... beep ... beep ... beep ... beep ... beep ... beep ... beep ' ?

The Arsenal open top bus reversing back into the garage !

GLOATING ISN'T BIG, AND IT ISN'T CLEVER

Arsenal goalkeeper tweeted this last week .........


TODAY, THE VERY SAME SZCZESNY COST HIS TEAM THE CARLING CUP FINAL.

BIRMINGHAM 2 - ARSENAL 1

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Belinda Heggen explains her dig at Mark Aiston

It's the talk of the internet... Channel Ten Adelaide newsreader Belinda Heggen's dig at Mark Aiston.

During the local Ten news in Adelaide Belinda made a passing comment at Mark Aiston as he wrapped up the sport which left everyone (including Aiston) shocked ... and then in tears!
We can tell you that both her comment and footage is very much real after the video set Facebook and Twitter alight with talk of the footage being fake due to Heggen's lack of expression.



It turns out the Newsreader was just as shocked as us by her comment telling Nova FM "He (Mark Aiston) just stepped wide open. He just served it up, I had to lob it back! It was only afterward when we crossed to the weather and went to a commercial break we just lost it".

While the hits on the video continues to rise we had to ask her if she got into trouble from the producers and News Director over the comment but it was just the opposite. "They lost it in my ear, everyone cracked up laughing. Mark was still in a state of shock. I must admit, once it hit me I thought oh no, am i going to get fired?" she laughs.

We can assure you that Belinda isn't going anywhere!

Saturday, February 26, 2011

Work Day 2-26-11

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I am so excited to have this dam stamp that my good friend at Jewelry My Tattoo gave me! I am having a lot of fun with it. Made some killer necklaces the last couple days. If you want one let me know.. I finally have had my vision come true and be able to give my signature medallions away to people I meet. I will be making a shit load of these and putting them in a little baggy with my website address, etc... and this will be my calling card and will actually replace my business card because the baggy will have all the business information on it.   


This is a video of the new signature Medallion I will be giving away to people I come in contact with on my travels.. 
 This is my new work station that I set up in my living room. I love it cuz it is buy the wall HEATER. I was getting way to cold outside.. So this little change is making me a lot more productive late at night.  I have been keeping a schedule of working late into the night so going out on the balcony at 4:00AM trying to carve is not cool. It is the little things like this that I wish I was smarter with and was able to be more observant of what I need to make me more productive (slow learner I guess). Once I learn it though watch the fuck out...



New Tribal Vase by TooTall's Pottery

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New Ceramic Tattoo Vase by TooTall
This vase was pretty awesome to make. I made it for a new friend of mine. It has my signature "Black Ice" glaze and red ink in the tattoo tribal trail. Let me know what you guys think?


Mick Jagger Rocks the Grammys

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Mick Jagger


Mick Jagger Rocks the Grammys






LOS ANGELES (CBS) In his debut performance at the Grammys, rocker Mick Jagger brought the audience to its feet Sunday night with a searing performance of Solomon Burke's "Everybody Needs Somebody to Love."
The show-stopping tribute to Burke, who died last year, followed the Grammy's usual taped In Memoriam segment. Jagger, who performed with guitarist Raphael Saadiq, came onstage in a gold cape, like the ones Burke was famous for, but soon dropped it as he swaggered and strutted across the stage, fists pumping and fingers pointing 





‘Idol’ Castoff Chris Medina Releases Debut

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By Andrae Vigil-Romero in American IdolFeaturedMusicTelevisionTop Stories

Illinois native Chris Medina was eliminated last night on American Idol. For many, it came as a complete shock. The singer’s dynamic vocals and incredible stage presence made him stand out among the other contestants, leading many to speculate that he would make the Top 24. However, his journey was cut short when Idol judges revealed to him that he did not make it through to the next round.
Medina, although no longer a contestant in the running for American Idol, has redefined what it truly means to be a man to entire country. His love and dedication to his wife, Julie, is something that is truly inspiring. As he promised before leaving the Idol set, “Now I’m going to go home and keep writing music. Take care of my wife. Make a miracle happen.”
Wasting no time, Medina has released his debut single “What Are Words” along with a music video from inside the recording studio with celebrated producer Rodney Jerkins, the man behind Lady Gaga’s “Telephone” and numerous Destiny’s Child hits. Click here to download the song on iTunes!
To donate to Chris’ wife Julie and help defray some of their medical costs, visit the Laurus Foundation.
“What Are Words”
Anywhere you are I am near. Anywhere you go I’ll be there.
Anytime you whisper my name. You’ll see.
Every single promise I’ll keep, cause what kind of guy would I be
if I was to leave when you need me most?
What are words if you really don’t mean them when you say them?
What are words if they’re only for good times then they don’t?
When it’s love Yea you say them out loud.
Those words, They never go away.
They live on even when we’re gone.
And I know an angel was sent just for me and I know I’m meant to be where I am
And I’m gonna be standing right beside her tonight and I’m gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most
What are words if you really don’t mean them when you say them?
What are words if they’re only for good times then they don’t
When it’s love Yea you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on even when we’re gone
Anywhere you are I am near. Anywhere you go I’ll be there.
Anytime you whisper my name. You’ll see.
Every single promise I’ll keep, cause what kind of guy would I be
if I was to leave when you need me most?
I’m forever keeping my angel close.

Friday, February 25, 2011

Nikki Sixx - Ceramic Tattoo Art By TooTall's Pottery

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Nikki Sixx
I have been a huge fan of Niki Sixx now for several years and I am very pleased with the way this new piece came out. I love his radio show - 
Sixx Sense and the new band - Sixx A.M.





Description
This piece is one of the best I have completed to date. I am very proud of it. It incorporates my new colors of red and black. I am going to make this my "signature style" It is a Ceramic Glaze called "Black Ice". Has a crackle glaze that I put ink into. I tattoo the tribal trail around the piece with a tattoo machine. I will be producing many more of this style look for it in the weeks to come...







Morales Funeral Home Steels Ceramic Art Urns from Starving Artist

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The thieves at Morales Funeral Home




It's not the fucken $ it is the principle!!! OK, actually it is about the $ too cuz I am a fucken starving artist and don't need assholes steeling my art from me but these fuckers did! I thought I would express my first negative opinion on this growing blog this morning and try to send it to as many fucken people and news agencies I could today. I need to start getting the word out about my business anyway and was going to make it a point to make a huge list of media today/this month to send out PR releases (this one will be in).  I am not trying to be an asshole or someone that is hateful cuz that is not what my art is about but these fucken assholes deserve every bit of this negative PR! I will make it a special project to put as much bad shit out there as I can about these fuckers... 

Steve Ponce was the original asshole that I dealt with at this shithole establishment. I contacted him through Facebook and asked him if I could send him some of my art urns to be on consignment. He said ya I would love to show your art here.  I then proceeded to ask my friend to help me buy this digital photo album so I could load some pictures of my art on it so that it would look fancy on there shelves with some of my art. The whole thing took me and my friend like probably 20+ hours of time and about $300.00 of mine and someone else hard earned money. A few weeks went by, I called Steve and he said ya people will like them just give it some time. I then tried to contact him again about a month later on Facebook - No answer - again - no fucken answer - Called his personal cell several times - no fucken answer - Called the Funeral Home - no fucken answer or call back. He put me off for a good 2 weeks and never did call me back. I then called the secretary and asked for someone different to talk to and she gave me to Gilda some other not so professional person she is a lady so I won't call her to many bad names and hey at least she did talk to me after I called her about 10 times (no shit). I am not thrilled with her either. She said that she would send the picture frame and I believe she tried but it got sent back or something after I had to call her again per her. I tried to call her back again and again with no answer or call back after I did not receive the dam digital picture frame. I finally yesterday called the owner and he hung up on me after saying I was rude to his staff, what a crock of bullshit! Steve Ponce is a thief and this Funeral Home is FUCKED! I hate pussy little thieves. If this asshole would like to come to California and pay me a visit I WELCOME it! Come on down MF. I may actually have to pay them a visit. I have some friends in Houston TX and will make it a point to do this in the near future. Funny thing was after telling this owner yesterday that I would pay him a visit - Guess who fucken called me twice yesterday - (STEVE PONCE) funny how a tone and a inference of a threat can get some assholes on the phone pretty fast. I never answered the call and don't intend to waste any more time on these assholes until I go down to TX personally or they come on down to Santa Barbara. This is not a threat of course cuz I would not want to break any fucken Internet or government rules on stalking or threatening to harm someone I just want to "talk" two these two assholes. It is a free Country and I am just practicing my fifth amendment of free fucken speech this morning cuz fuck it I am on unemployment (like half the fucken State of California).  Sad state of some people like this and I totally hope that karma bites these fuckers in the ass ASAP!


This is there contact e-mail:  christina@moralesfuneralhome.com

If you would like to contact them and express your concern about there thievery, I would greatly appreciate it.
2901 Canal St.
Houston Texas 77003
(713) 223-1167
FUCK YOU MORALEZ FUNERAL HOME!!!


Nominees for the 83rd Academy Awards

Actor in a Leading Role

Javier Bardem in “Biutiful”
Jeff Bridges in “True Grit”
Jesse Eisenberg in “The Social Network”
Colin Firth in “The King's Speech”
James Franco in “127 Hours”

Actor in a Supporting Role

Christian Bale in “The Fighter”
John Hawkes in “Winter's Bone”
Jeremy Renner in “The Town”
Mark Ruffalo in “The Kids Are All Right”
Geoffrey Rush in “The King's Speech”

Actress in a Leading Role

Annette Bening in “The Kids Are All Right”
Nicole Kidman in “Rabbit Hole”
Jennifer Lawrence in “Winter's Bone”
Natalie Portman in “Black Swan”
Michelle Williams in “Blue Valentine”

Actress in a Supporting Role

Amy Adams in “The Fighter”
Helena Bonham Carter in “The King's Speech”
Melissa Leo in “The Fighter”
Hailee Steinfeld in “True Grit”
Jacki Weaver in “Animal Kingdom”

Animated Feature Film

“How to Train Your Dragon” Chris Sanders and Dean DeBlois
“The Illusionist” Sylvain Chomet
“Toy Story 3” Lee Unkrich

Cinematography

“Black Swan” Matthew Libatique
“Inception” Wally Pfister
“The King's Speech” Danny Cohen
“The Social Network” Jeff Cronenweth
“True Grit” Roger Deakins

Directing

“Black Swan” Darren Aronofsky
“The Fighter” David O. Russell
“The King's Speech” Tom Hooper
“The Social Network” David Fincher
“True Grit” Joel Coen and Ethan Coen

Best Picture

“Black Swan” Mike Medavoy, Brian Oliver and Scott Franklin, Producers
“The Fighter” David Hoberman, Todd Lieberman and Mark Wahlberg, Producers
“Inception” Emma Thomas and Christopher Nolan, Producers
“The Kids Are All Right” Gary Gilbert, Jeffrey Levy-Hinte and Celine Rattray, Producers
“The King's Speech” Iain Canning, Emile Sherman and Gareth Unwin, Producers
“127 Hours” Christian Colson, Danny Boyle and John Smithson, Producers
“The Social Network” Scott Rudin, Dana Brunetti, Michael De Luca and Ceán Chaffin, Producers
“Toy Story 3” Darla K. Anderson, Producer
“True Grit” Scott Rudin, Ethan Coen and Joel Coen, Producers
“Winter's Bone" Anne Rosellini and Alix Madigan-Yorkin, Producers

Visual Effects

“Alice in Wonderland” Ken Ralston, David Schaub, Carey Villegas and Sean Phillips
“Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1” Tim Burke, John Richardson, Christian Manz and Nicolas Aithadi
“Hereafter” Michael Owens, Bryan Grill, Stephan Trojansky and Joe Farrell
“Inception” Paul Franklin, Chris Corbould, Andrew Lockley and Peter Bebb
“Iron Man 2” Janek Sirrs, Ben Snow, Ged Wright and Daniel Sudick

Writing (Original Screenplay)

“Another Year” Written by Mike Leigh
“The Fighter” Screenplay by Scott Silver and Paul Tamasy & Eric Johnson;
Story by Keith Dorrington & Paul Tamasy & Eric Johnson
“Inception” Written by Christopher Nolan
“The Kids Are All Right” Written by Lisa Cholodenko & Stuart Blumberg
“The King's Speech” Screenplay by David Seidler

FREE RANGE ICE CREAM ANYONE ?



Icecreamists, an ice cream parlor in London’s Covent Garden, has introduced a new flavor of ice cream made with 75% human breast milk. The flavor, called “Baby Gaga,” will be served by a Lady Gaga impersonator and cost £14 a pop.

The breast milk was acquired through donations made by women responding to ad placed by the restaurant’s founder, Matt O’Connor. “Some people will hear about it and go yuck,” said breast milk donor Victoria Hiley, “but actually it’s pure organic, free-range and totally natural.”

WHEN YOU JUST CAN'T AFFORD TO STOP

Superette: Short shorts

With both men and women now wearing their shorts at breathtaking heights, fashion chain Superette was presented with a unique opportunity to draw attention to their sale on short shorts.





DDB Auckland ads were placed on the virgin thighs that are exposed in this latest trend, by putting indented plates across the inner city and fashion district bus stops, mall seats and park benches, so that when people sat down the message was imprinted on their thighs.

This meant that as well as having branded seats, a veritable army of free media was created for Superette, with thousands of imprints being created and lasting up to an hour. Plus, by the nature of where the ads were placed, only the hippest young cats were seen advocating the brand.

Kids who eat pizza 'do not ask lots of smart-arse questions'

FAT, happy children who eat pizza do not waste their time asking a series of annoying, smart-arse questions, researchers have discovered.

The Institute for Studies found that children who consume a healthy diet of fatty, processed food are quieter and more co-operative than the mouthy, jumped-up little shits who want to know exactly where their broccoli came from.

Researchers studied 1200 children across the UK and found that the fat children would finish their plate of chicken drumshapes and go and sit quietly in front of the television while children who ate cabbage would follow their parents around all day with a list of tedious questions about politics and the environment.

Professor Henry Brubaker said: "We found that the fat children and everyone who came into contact with them were up to 95% happier.

"These children's brains are beautifully uncluttered, their parents blissfully undisturbed and everyone who sees them instantly breaks into the broad smile that invariably accompanies the sight of a roly-poly child.

"The most probing question a fat child will is ask 'can you lift me up to see if I'm sitting on the remote control?'.

"Meanwhile the smart-arse cabbage eaters are filled with incessant 'whys' and 'hows' and grow up into unhappy, interfering, Guardian reading bastards who cannot shut their fucking faces for two minutes without some opinion falling out of it like a turd."

MR M. MACKEY MESMERIZING HIS MENTORS WITH MATHEMATICS ..................... MMMM'KAY

Teacher Mr M. Mackey said: "I bloody love fat kids, M'kay. All glassy eyed and docile, M'Kay. It's like teaching a cow, M'kay.

"Whenever I see a hand in the air I know immediately that it belongs to some rosy-cheeked, twinkly-eyed little fucker who's just had a tangerine ........... M'kay"

Professor Brubaker added: "The key to human existence is pizza and happiness. Not vegetables and questions."

Polar storm threatens to give LA an Oscar weekend fit for snow angels

Blame Canada. An unusually cold polar storm is expected to usher fierce winds to Los Angeles this afternoon and snow this weekend down to 1,000 feet.

The Canadian cold front, in tandem with a winter storm, could snarl mountain passes with snow and ice and tie up traffic from San Francisco to Los Angeles to Las Vegas, weather forecasters said.

It could also bring bluster to the Oscar red carpet Sunday, with wool the smart choice over chiffon.

"Vera Wang is out. L.L. Bean is in."

The extreme cold system, originating north of the U.S. border and trailing a winter storm, was expected to head down the Pacific Coast, dumping the first snow on San Francisco Bay in 35 years.

The initial blast to the Southland on Friday will hit San Luis Obispo and Santa Barbara counties, with three to five hours of heavy rain, forecasters said.



Then, as the cold front catches up, snow levels in those counties is expected to drop to 500 feet, with 1 to 2 feet expected in the mountains above 5,000 feet.

The National Weather Service issued a winter storm warning across much of the region.

"We have a very cold storm coming in that originated in Canada," said Dessa Emch, manager of weather observation at the National Weather Service in Oxnard. "It'll bring some of the lowest snow levels we've seen.

"Snow and ice will definitely affect the major mountain passes around Los Angeles County."
In Los Angeles, showers were expected to bring up to an inch of rain, or up to six inches of snow down to 1,000 feet across the Antelope and Santa Clarita valleys, Santa Monica Mountains and lower foothills around the San Fernando Valley.

The freezing storm, accompanied by downpours, hail, gusty winds up to 50 mph, and waterspouts off the coast, is expected to peter out by Sunday.

Temperatures in the San Fernando Valley are expected to drop to freezing Saturday night.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

My regrets in life...

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A day of Regrets:  I have a couple big regrets in my life today.  I am 39 almost 40 now. I think the biggest regret I have is not being able to have or be part of a family and to be unselfish enough to be a good Dad and Husband.  Being a sober member of AA now for 15 years is my largest accomplishment to date but I sure have made some serious mistakes along the way. I don't want to shut the door on the past or regret it but I guess sometimes like the way I feel today it comes out of me. I had to write a letter to a person and tell them how very sorry I am today for my past behaviors in this particular family situation I screwed up with a couple years ago. I flaked out on being a Father and that sucks. It was the second time I did that in my life. I feel the biggest regret for those two things. If I got diagnosed with Cancer today and they told me I have 30 days to live the 2 things I would regret the most would be the way in which I handled both of the family situations in my life that had to deal with young boys ages 4-7. I don't know what it is all about with young boys, but I have had the hardest time  being there for them and having the patience to deal. Yes, I am totally telling bad on myself right now and I just don't care.  I need to get it out and what the hell all this shit effects me and my art so I will call it relative, if you don't like it FUCK YOU!  Maybe someone will get something out of me pouring my heart out on this blog. Maybe I was supposed to or meant to be doing this with my life instead of being a Father. Maybe this is the way in which I can contribute to society, by admitting my wrong doings and trying to be a better person on a daily basis?  Maybe I am just feeling sorry for myself and want to talk about it? Maybe I am a completely nutso fucken weirdo and I am talking to myself on this blog, whatever it is I am going to live true to myslef and put myself out there and what will happen will happen.  I think maybe this blog caused me to loose a job today - good for fucken me! I hate dealing with assholes that can't handle or deal with the fucken truth anyway. I find that a lot that people can't handle or want to deal with the TRUTH. The truth of themselves or another persons truth. Thy want to mask it in some way as to not have to deal with it. I live my life very honestly some may say to honestly but fuck it I feel good about my life and it seems like the more honest I live the better I feel and sleep at night. 

The first fucked situation:  I won't break anyone's anonymity so.. I am not that honest. If someone reads this that knows me and the situation so be it but I don't have the right to put my shit on anyone else.. Anyway, this young man came into my life about 10 years ago I guess (bad with time) and he was a sweetheart and deserved the best home he could possibly have. I was not able to provide that home or be that Dad for him that he needed. It was a situation where I made the decision with my wife at the time to try and adopt a child. We were married for about 4 years by then and my wife (looking back was going through menopause) and want to have a child. I thought to myself oh shit.. I married an older lady (my sweety Jamie) because I knew I was just a couple years sober and didn't know shit about life. I also knew that I was an only child spoiled rotten and might have some difficulty with raising a child.  I never really had a burning desire to be a Father but was open to it. We were financially set and I thought what the hell lets try it. I went along with it because I loved my wife and wanted to explore the possibility of adoption. We went through a 6 month class in Riverside County to be able to adopt. The only thing I requested was that they NOT send us a hyper child. What did they give me to try out for a weekend - a little Mexican jumping bean (looking back so cute and lovable) but hyper as hell. The first day actually that night I called the social worker and told her that I could not handle it and that it was not a good fit for me. They just give you the child for a weekend to (see if you guys click) and then you are supposed to make a decision after maybe a couple times seeing the child for the weekend. When I called the social worker that night I remember my wife saying "no way we are keeping him".  That was the beginning of the end for us and my attempt at Fatherhood. a couple weeks went by and I was starting to really resent this young man because he was actually breaking up my happy marriage. I started to be mean and treat him badly. So badly actually that I felt I needed to leave after a month or so. I moved out to an apartment.  The social worker came by and asked me about this young man and I told her that it all sucked and that I don't want to adopt him and I was regretful because it was breaking up my marriage, etc... The social worker (asshole that she was in my opinion) gave my wife the right to adopt this boy on her own a couple weeks later. I think she was an asshole not because she let her adopt him but because she should have made US all go into therapy before she allowed it to happen if at all. Things I guess worked out the way they were supposed to though.., About a month later my wife calls me and tells me that she has Hep C and that it was far along. Wow.. My life is spiraling, I then do the next selfish thing and that is to charge up about $87,000 in credit card debt in less than a year and go into denial something I am pretty good at looking back on my life. My wife and I remained friend's and we tried to get back together a couple times but I just knew I was not able to have the patience to deal with him and treat him the way he needed to be treated with love and kindness. I regret this deeply. I loved this young man and still do, I wish very badly that he could be part of my life now that I am a little less selfish and have some more experience dealing with kids. Maybe some day I will be lucky enough to have a relationship with him. I have just been able to sit back and watch again someone else take the responsibly of raising him cuz I am not in a position to do so. Can't really financially and probably would be a shit Father too. My wife died and her sister (great person) is raising him along with the other wonderful family members. I wish I could have been better. 

Second fucked situation:  This time I decide to take on a ready made family with three kids. Two girls and a boy. The Father had recently passed away and I met the woman in AA she had some time sober and she was so gorgeous! She was my "dream girl" perfect body, long beautiful hair, just a beautiful persona all around, I wish she was still in my life actually.  I am grateful to this family for the fact that I found out I was not just a complete asshole to kids in general and that I did have the capacity to love children and be kind to them and really love being with them.  The two girls were so cool, I LOVE girls and do have a soft spot for them in my heart. They could do no wring and I just had the best time with them. The boy though... we had huge problems. Looking back again I really wish that I had the capacity as a person to be unselfish enough to be able to take a break and do the next right thing and go to counseling to learn how to have patience with him. Instead I chose to do the next selfish thing and blame the Mom and make up some bullshit excuse that she was being mean to me wa wa wa... So I could again run away from my responsibilities as a Father and a Mate. I did run away and life has been a whirlwind from that point to this point. This is the letter I wrote to her tonight having to apologize and the reason why all these feelings are coming up in me. Along with the fact that my Grandmother just took her life 3 weeks ago. Life is short and we only have today to be kind and loving and to not create "regrets" for ourselves to have to look back on. I hope I can not have to have anymore of these regrets in my life. I am older now and I don't want to have kids of my own because of this. I think obviously I was meant ot be a selfish artist haha. Art is my life and I am blessed to have it. I want to be a powerful giver of my art and make a difference in this work that will be lasting in some way. I can't be a Father so maybe I can do something else worthwhile with my life like sponsor people in AA and give my art to the world, etc... Gods will be done not mine. I just have to keep on keeping on and having positive faith that God did not bring me hear to just do this. I am destined to be something better and I am excited to see what that is. I have these two major regrets but also know that things are just the way they are supposed to be and I am not going to lay around on the pity pot. I needed to write this and get it out so maybe I can move on with my life and do something positive. 

Thanks to anyone who read this shit and good night..
Matt

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I am just going to talk about what I did for the work day yesterday (late last night) if nothing else just to keep me accountable for my actions and maybe a bit of a personal diary of my experiences here in Santa Barbara. Oh ya and maybe someone might read this Fucken post and COMMENT! Just kidding if you want to though I would totally appreciate any input you may have on my art and how you think I can improve it or whatever.. I have made a decision to go for more quality than quantity with my blog posts so look for some more original stuff - I will still be posting my Boob pics though have to do that.. 

I stayed up till 5:00AM glazing the Nikki Six piece I was working on. I hope it comes out of the kiln good today! I am going to go deliver it to him maybe next week. I want to go down to LA for the "Musink" Tattoo Ink Convention and may stay over at a friends house to see if I can go by the studio or something.  I am trying to get some celebrity exposure for my art business. Nikki has a bad ass radio show called Sixx Sense and I would like to have my picture taken with him, etc.. for my website. Hopefully I will be taking a great picture of it and posting it on tomorrows blog...


I am also so excited to have this AWESOME Stamp (video of it below) that my good friend Bryan at Jewelry My Tattoo gave to me. I love it and it has completed a artist vision I have had now for about 8 years actually. I have always thought it would be great to have a stamp of my tattoo and artists logo to make these little Medallions to give away to people that purchase my art. I like to just give them away to people that I meet on the street or whatever too. People really like to get something from a complete stranger.  I take a piece of clay and smush it into a small mound, let it dry for a few hours and then carve it like a rock that you would find on the beach. I then glaze it with a glaze called "black Ice" this is my signature glaze, it is like a black mirror - you can see yourself in it. I put some red Tattoo ink in the middle and string some beads to finish the piece. I like this red Tattoo ink I got because it has a nice yellow tint to it. I will be making a lot of these in the weeks to come so if you would like one I will be glad to give you one just let me know... 

Finished TooTall Necklace 


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Below is the latest handmade ceramic plate I have completed. It is a special plate I have done for a very special friend of mine and I will be giving it to her on Saturday It is my artist interpretation of a blue willow plate. I liked the idea when she gave it to me, to incorporate blues and whites. I use a white or clear crackle glaze a lot so this was a good match. I also have been really learning on how to use the tattoo inks that I have to paint with on my pottery. It is a great medium for me to work with! They have a high density pigment and the versatility that it gives me in working with it on the ceramic bisque. You can re-constitute or dilute it with water, etc... very cool.  

When I was in the process of completing this plate I leaned a lot about the vision I want my pottery business to go into with tattoo art. I am learning a lot every day at this point.  I am finally set up and running and it feels great to be able to produce some art instead of worrying about getting everything "right" so I can start to be productive. I am a bit of a perfectionist so I am just sucking it up and making myself do my art and get it out there. It is a scary thing to put your heart and soul out to the world on a regular basis and be true to that. Artists will understand what I am talking about. I have been afraid of producing my art because I was afraid of loosing what I have again and having to start all over. I recently learned at an AA meeting yesterday that I was acting in "self centered fear" by being afraid of loosing everything. I thought I just didn't have enough faith and was scared but really when you think about it it is a form of selfishness to be afraid of something you should be doing like producing the art I was meant to no matter what happens. I only have today, I wish I could remember that every day and live happy, but I seem to forget so often.. Thank God for my meetings and the people in them! 

This is a Collie Pet Urn that I carved from a design that Maria my good friend in Italy drew for me this week. I am so blessed to have these wonderful people in my life to help me with my art.  We are going to split the profits of the sale of Pet Urns that I will list on the other sites that carry my art. She is a great artist.  This is a Collie and we will be doing a collaboration of several dog breads in tribal design so look for these in the upcoming weeks to follow. 

Maria drew this Tribal Cat that we did together about 6 months ago.

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